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This is a post I wrote in my notebook when I did not have internet connection a month ago:

What is your body perception? Do you see yourself as you really are? I do not. I am learning more and more about myself as I get older. When I was younger I always saw myself as fat, never normal. When I was in college and was exercising like a maniac losing ton of weight, I still saw myself as fat. Everyone saw me as unhealthy. One day my mother had to sit down and talk to me about my appearance and beg me to start eating more and working out a little less. I love my mother so much that I did what she asked. Fell in love and gain tremendous amount of weight. 8 years later I am on the verge of trying to lose over 100lbs.

I recently lost 78lbs but still on the heavy side. I order some clothes that were supposedly my size. The reason why I say supposed to be my size is because it is the current size that I wear now. So I am like trying on clothes and notice they do not fit right, at least the tops. They are too big on me. They look kind of sloppy. I am like wow, did I lost more weight? I ran to check the scale, nope just 2lbs.  2lbs does not make that much of a big difference? Each top I tried on I am like wow, I always see myself as huge but in my clothing it tells me different. I am very please but at the same time confused of why do I think and see myself one way but the clothes show me different? My body perception is all off…I hope one day I can really see myself as others see me.

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